After A Long While...

<(Saturday: Riddles and Questions)>

~Sometimes it's good to take a break every now and again~

Hi again folks. I must apologize for leaving for a really long time. Alot of stuff has happened to me during this time. But don't worry, I finally decided to get back to blogging. Permenantly.... I hope.

You see, life for me hasn't been all that wonderful lately. Heck it hasn't even been all that good or decent. Just bareable and tolerable.

Over this summer, I found out I couldn't go back to the college I was attending, due to financial reason.
That really sucked, and even though I promised my friends at college I would return after 2 semesters, I have a feeling I won't be able to go back. Which really made me sad.
However, I wasn't just sad because of that. No, there was other underlying things. But that's for another day.

Now on to what this blog is for on Saturdays...

Riddles or Questions!

I'm really sorry though, the riddles will have to wait for this time, I haven't heard, read, or solved any good riddles lately.

So instead will be a Q & A segment.
This is how this will work. Sometimes, if I ever get more readers, I will post questions I get and I will answer them. If I don't get any, then I will just take them from my Formspring account. At the end I will post 3 Questions I want you, the reader to answer. Whether it is in my comments, or emailed, I don't care. Just answer them.
Sound fair? Okay let the questions flow!

Question: What is one thing you wish to accomplish in life, and why?

Answer: Well the only thing I wish to accomplish in my life, is to know that I had made an impact on someone's life. Generally speaking, I think I just flow in life, and I don't know if I really did anything great. But if I knew one person who I changed their life, in a positive way, then I would be happy with that accomplishment.

Question: How have you been?

Answer: I guess I'm okay, not super or oustanding, but just okay. I'm getting by, and that to me seems enough.

Question: What types of books do you like?

Answer: That's a tough call... I generally like books that are inspiring, and make me wish that was like real life. I sometimes like fantasy books, maybe even some adventure. Romance and Friendship stories are also good. Angsty books are always interesting to read as well. I won't however, read the Horror, Science Fiction, or anything that will make me fall asleep.

Question: What's your opinion on society today?

Answer: Hm... in all honesty, I think our society is messed up. We praise people for doing stupid things, and if we don't we ignore it. Sometimes its helpful to acknowledge idiocity because it helps people learn. However, we glorify people who do stupid things. Also society, while it seems to have gotten better, is still very judgemental and picky. I just think society has gone from an "I CAN DO THIS ON MY OWN"to an "I CAN DO THIS IF SOMEONE ELSE DOES IT TOO!"  Seriously, people who think they are individuals aren't really. I am not an exception either. I tend to be a follower.

Well thats all I have for my questions, I hope it wasn't too boring. I'm starting to think they reminded me of a essay answer.

Anyways now it's your turn to answer some.

Here's my questions for you!

1) If you could wish for one thing to happen to you, what would you want to wish for?
2) Would you go back in time to relive a period of time, or to rewrite you own past?
3) Who's mostly in control of your life?

Well that's all I really have time for today guys.
I really shouldn't be writing into the morning hours, but I couldn't really sleep today.

From Restless-Yet-Tired,
~AdmiralSol

A Blast From A Memorial Past

<(Sunday: Reflecting on the Past)>

~There are times where we want to just give it up, but then we see a flicker of hope..~

Hi folks, I just wanted to apologize, especially for not coming back immediately after I said I would. I've been really busy with what not, school, and my emotions.

As I stated before, I would make my Sunday's Reflection days on my past. That way you guys, or who ever reads this blog, will get a sense of who I am.

So let's begin with an interesting moment from my childhood.

I'm not sure if I remember this memory correctly. Honestly, it was probably due to this event that I do not remember things really all that well. 

Age: 3 - 4. 

I had woken up that day, in my families first apartment here. This was before I went to school, and before I knew about the world outside the house. I also was sleeping in my parents room still at this time. Anyways, I walked out of the room, and my mom asked me if I wanted pancakes for breakfast. I got so excited. I loved pancakes, still do actually. My sisters were still sleeping I think during this part. 

So I sat at the table on his chair, that I had to jump, or crawl up to sit up. Then I remember I was swinging my legs, and just waiting for the pancakes. Remember folks, when you're a kid, while waiting for something you really want at the time, you feel like it feels like forever. So being the impatient kid I was, I ask my mom if I can go out to play.

Thinking back, I don't know why I asked that. I didn't have friends around the area. We lived by a busy street. There was also nothing to do outside in the area. But I had said I was going to do that. As I headed out the door, after my mom said it was okay as long as I stay within the sight of the window of the kitchen, I fell down. Did I mention that we lived on the second story of a building, and the way up to our apartment was a long staircase. I'm assuming you can infer what happened. 

I remember, as falling, tumbling, and flipping down the stairs, my world going black around my eyes. When I reached the bottom, I remember feeling really scared, and not being able to move. I think I passed out, wait no I did. I don't know what happens after that though. I just remember hearing voices.

When I did come too, I was on the couch in the living room. I was really confused, and disoriented. My mom then walked in and looked so happy. You could tell she was concerned. 

It was dinner time and night fall.

I had the biggest bruise on my nose, and forehead. That folks is a blast from my past.

I hope you enjoyed this little story. I guess it explains why I don't remember things well, either that or how my mind is kind of messed up. I think i might have damaged something in my head, but I'm fine by medical standards. This is just my thought on how my brain works.

Anyways I hope you learned something.

Peace folks~

Salazar De Almont.

Forgetful much?

~Isn't funny how when you thought you forgot something, it slowly comes floating back to your heart?~

That basically sums up my feelings at the moment. Sorry about that folks, or those who do wish to read this blog. I totally forgot this thing existed.

So let me bring everyone up to par.

I've been playing a MMO called GrandChase. Yeah, that game is so entertaining.
I try to play it whenever I have down time. People in that game are nice enough, some are very interesting to talk to.

Speaking of which. I realized recently that my account on GrandChase says I'm female. Okay, not that recently, but a good month or so ago. I was wondering why people in that game were slowly getting crushes on me, and what not. I should tell them, but I think dropping hints should be enough for now.

Anyways, I don't know what to make of this year in College.

I love my school, the people and the teachers. They are so helpful, so kind, so considerate. I mean sure there are so bad apples and coconuts out there. But that's besides the point. This school is glorious if you look for the right people.

Then again, any school could be.

So yeah, just so we're clear, I've decided to use this blog in order to vent out things, and post some other things.

Each day will be assigned a different task. Since this is Monday I shall start the week there.

Ready?

Monday- Ranting
Tuesday-Photography
Wednesday- Poetry
Thursday-Snippet of a story.
Friday- Ranting
Saturday- Riddles and Questions
Sunday- Reflection of the Past.

So Mondays and Fridays are my days where you guys can learn about me alittle more, and my life.
Tuesdays I will put up some photography I have taken.
Wednesdays I will share some poetry.
Thursdays I will share a few paragraphs of a story I've written.
Saturdays is more interactive.
And Sunday I will reflect on my past.

Okay got it?

Well I hope so.

"Wilt thou change this world...or wilt thou change thyself?" - Water Dragon (Chrono Cross)

Think it, live it, let it absorb

~Salazar De Almont

Wednesday People... Guess what that means?

~It's another Poetry Day!~

Yes, After being silent for a week and 3 days. PROJECT SILENT is somewhat over. By that I mean I can talk again. But I'm not sharing my results or the phrases with people anymore. Why? Because EVERYONE, let me down, they got me talking for I gave them an alternate way to get me talking. But I'm not sharing my reason/results until I they do finish my thing.

ALSO! I'm going to be really evil now... I'm going to enter silent mode when either of the following happen.

When someone calls me something, That something I'm not sharing.

Or.

Just be silent to that person, when they do a certain action/want to find out my results/reasons.

So people, you better be careful!

Oh by the by, Wednesdays when I update, are Poetry days Remember?!

Tell me next time, what you guys want me to write about... I'm going to take request for a while.
This weeks poem is...


Would You?
By Ray Ceasar Almirante

I saw the clock
I heard a chime
Again I wished
I wished you were mine.

The mirror came to view
With someone else in sight
Was that guy even there
Or did I see something right?

As I walked passed
The blooming buds
A thought had came
And my heart went "thud"

I started running now
I don't even know where
I just know I am gone
From the place that your not there.

I wish you would
And if you don't
I wish you did
But I know you won't

It's really hard
For me to say
It was supposed
To be a good day

All I ask is this thing
That you find life happier
With or without me now
That's all I wish for you dear

I hope you hear this phrase
I just know this is true
I won't be your favorite
Not for a while, to you.

At least I can
Do one last thing
Make you smile
To make that clock ring.

But you won't regret this
It the only way too
Unless you didn't tell
And you won't, not quite, would you?

Thats all for now folks... I don't really like the title... Suggest new titles for it please!

Day 2... Of Project S.I.L.E.N.T

This is just an update..Basically I've done one complete day of silence, meaning not talking. I'm still communicating, just not with my voice.

So far, I've gotten mixed reactions. But oh well. I will be determined. I want this project to succeed... or at least prove something to people!

So Entering Day 2, which actually is the first day of classes.

Day One of The Project is Now In Effect.

~I'm trying out an experiment~

I put alot of thought into this project. I'm going to initate it starting whenever I am awake. Basically, the project is this;

Project Silly Innocent Loquacious Equals No Talking... in other words Project S.I.L.E.N.T. Yeah I know, bad name. But I decided upon this project on one thing.

People think I am weird. I say the weirdest things. Because I do that alot, mostly around males, I have the conclusion that it is because I say the first thing on my mind! Well no more.

No more!

I will not say weird things anymore... you know why? Because from now on, I'm going to remain silent. I'm not going to say any words with my voice. I'm going to communicate through writing on a wipe board.

Sounds crazy right? Well frankly it's weird. Also it won't be easy. But I need to do this. I need to find out something. It's not just for me, no... I want to prove something.

My voice, its annoying... but I'm going to try to change something. Make my voice heard, without my vioce being heard.

I wanna see if people really do pay attention to me, maybe if they really care about what I say.

That mainly is the driving force of this project. If I really can go a long time without actually talking, well that will be great.

But seriously, I'm not talking. I'm either going to write on the board, or I'm going to start when someone actually says a certain phrase I want to hear. I'm not going to share that phrase here however. Because if someone I know reads this, then they will say it just to get me to talk. Therefore, I'm not talking.

Yup.... So for the upcoming days in this blog... I'm going to update the situation. If people don't notice... or if people don't care... then frankly last Saturday was the last day they were going to hear me talk. Because I'm sick of it. I'm sick of talking.

"Sometimes the strongest voice, is the one not heard at all"-Someone Else, but not me.

Think it, Live it, let it absorb.

Question: How long do you think I will last?

Peace, and goodbye voice~

Salazar De Almont

Wednesday's Shall Now Be Poetry Day.

~Reflecting on things is always hard~

Especially if these things aren't always the best thing that you would like to remember. But seriously though, everyone needs to reflect. Reflecting on how something turned out, or how you felt, is only really the main thing that really helps people grow.

So instead of talking about my problems and situations, I am going to devote my Wednesdays to writing poetry again. I know, I haven't written poetry in such a long time. But I think it's about due.

Here's this blog's first Poem.

A Chance, A Meeting
By Ray Ceasar Almirante
I met you once before
In the arms of another
I met you again
Instead of thinking
I met you a third time
Being loved by my family
I met you by chance
But the time wasn't right 
I met you today
Yearning in my dreams
I met you at night
You still didn't see me
I met you once more 
Loving my older
I turned away
Lost in my pain
Now you want to meet me
But I can't bear to see
I'll meet you another time
When I can no longer feel

Okay... maybe not the best poem out there. Heck it might not even be a poem. But to me, it is a poem. Because poems don't have to rhyme or have structure. They could be free and loose.

So I bid you farewell, just for today at least

Also, I shall try to update this more often from now on...

"You don't need actions, when the words speak so much."

Live it, think it, and let it absorb.

Question: What do you guys believe is Poetry?

~Salazar De Almont